Itâ€™s funny how often I feel sick these days. Not feverish, or like I have a flu, but I just feel like throwing up.
Someone joked that I could be pregnant.
I also have this constantly nervous, almost sinking feeling in me all the time. This is even stranger, because almost nothing makes me nervous or scared. I can’t describe the feeling very well even. Nervous is mot definitely not the right word. Itâ€™s like a little kid, knowing that he’s broken a window, and is dreading his parents coming home, because of the trouble he’ll be in. He knows his parents love him, so they wont send him away, but a punishment is sure to ensue. But now that I put that down in words, even that doesn’t accurately describe it. But I think its pretty close. But I’ve not broken any windows, and my parents are across the seas. I’m old enough not to fear any kind of punishment from anyone.
What am I feeling?